Today I turned 25 years old
Over the years of my life, you can say that I made out pretty well. I went to a prestigious boarding school in Alexandria, VA, graduated from Ohio University, founded my own business, never went to jail, don't have any babies out of of wedlock, never did drugs/trap, and when people get to know me I have a magnetism that draws them in that I can't really turn off.
I realized that while I had a lot to be thankful for and that people that I care about are in good health and safe, I also realized that in these next 25 years of my life, I really need to just stop giving a fxck about pleasing other people and fitting myself in a mold that they expect me to become.
I told this to my girlfriend over dinner last night while my website was collecting over 5000 page views (this is something that has never happened before so I am very pleased). I realized that most of my life I have been doing things for others instead of myself
As you get older you realize certain things. You realize you can't go for what you what if you are going to live your life pleasing other people. And I say this humbly with all due respect. You can't live your life pleasing people you don't really know well, your friends, your family members and not even your boss/co workers. If it doesn't sit well with you, then you shouldn't do it...no matter how much money in the world or what an opportunity of a lifetime it will be. Even if you chase it, you will still feel like a hamster on a wheel.
That brings me to my next point: money. People believe that money is the motivation, but the people that think this way are normally broke or just above broke. Money is an asset not a form of access. If you chase what you want while having some sort of reality in your life to hold you down, you will be fine. There is a clear difference between being an utopian, optimist, pessimist, realist...really just be you. Just because someone's reality doesn't match the reality you want or you're trying to go for, doesn't mean it has to be your reality.
Also whenever it is my bday, I decided that this day going forward don't be on facebook or any social medium, unless it is for business purposes. The reason why I say that is because you should go out and enjoy your celebration of life. Don't be so hung up on waiting for people miles or states away from you to wish you happy bday that you hardly get to see annually. Yes Facebook has revolutionized the feeling of a birthday, but nonetheless as most of those people don't give a fzck about your life (unless you become popular off demand) you really shouldn't give a fzck about them. I tell you that because I did 2 music internships where my work was under appreciated, worked at a job where my boss and his associate director overlooked my 110% effort and ran a record label in college where it was mostly me doing the leg work and not really pushing my own music because I was pushing other people's music (most of them don't perform anymore).
Ever since I got fired this year, I sleep just fine. I don't worry about things as much anymore. Going to church also helps too. God has helped me realize that I need to focus on my personal goals and not try to live up to expectations. The money will be fine, my family will be fine and the friends that I do have will be fine too. I need to make sure that I am fine and content with my life. The blog/website is a start. I didn't buy a web designer, I did it myself. I taught myself some tidbits on html/css and I managed to choose the correct layout to reflect myself as a writer.
I realized being a journalist, people are less likely to screw you over because they need people like you to give them exposure by writing about them. As a music producer/DJ you tend to find that you will fall for the most dirtiest tricks in the book because you're so thirsty and wound up for fame and exposure. What I am saying is, this route is better for me at the moment because I get to meet different artists everyday, get to network and get to help them and in return they help the growth and popularity of my site. I couldn't do that when I was tweeting songs at an internship or taking customer service calls for 8 hours. I am not making a salary off this right now, but I know I will soon. This will overall establish me as a brand let alone as a person.
I can say I am very thankful for all the support but instead I will say, how can we continue to get from point A to B with C in mind? Just thoughts of a 25 year old
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